Pain at its Finest

I would say that pain is something that we all go through in our lifetime. Different intensities...different impact on our life. Some pain can be ignored in a blink of an eye as it can't even penetrate even the first layer of our sensitivity. Others are bound to be much more persistent. It reoccurs every so often that we realized that we are already living with it for as long as forever. It won't go away...maybe, just maybe we are not doing much to get rid of it. 

Yes, exactly...to get rid, not just to avoid it with pretty lies and pretensions that they don't even exist. As if we are fooling ourselves that we won't get wet when we expose ourselves in the rain. 

Today, just like coffee or any brand of tea that we are all wishes to drink...I am experiencing pain at its finest. I closed my eyes so it will not manifest into tears. But a heart that is wounded would not dare to look into an open or closed eyes. Tears are bound to fall just like rain when the clouds could not bear the pressure anymore. 

But what I am proud of myself is that out if this situation...I had evolved to be a better person. I had managed to twist my attitude in dealing with it. I am not anymore blaming anyone for what I am feeling...I realized that it is I, who must deal with this pain. As I rather caused this to myself rather than others had caused it to me. I realized in life...no one can ever hurt you unless you had allowed them to break you. And you shall never blame others for what you feel. Coz pain, specially those that hurts the most and strikes deeply into your core is something that started within you and should end with you.