Dennise Lourraine

Exactly two years ago, I received the most wonderful gift I could ever imagine. When I learned that I'll soon be a father... I was filled with mixed emotions yet it only boils down to only one realization when she arrived. A part of me has just been born...and that part would be more important than anything else.

When Dennise Lorraine came into my world, it totally changed and turned my world upside down.

I had never felt so complete until I heard that first cry. I had never learned how two souls meets beyond the eyes until she flashes into my very eyes those sweet smiles. I had never been so strong until I heard her called me papa...and that too defies the sweetest thing I ever tasted.

I just can't ask for anything more as God gave me a very healthy, smart, cheerful and kind hearted child.

Choices

If it is right then how can it feels so wrong? and If it is wrong how can it feels so right? You felt confused, and you started thinking of a metaphor that goes like...

For some people, having a shoe is just a wild imagination, some might have one but totally worn out, others may wish they could have more. Then, there you go...life gave you a couple to choose from. You felt bad as you are confused which one best fits you.

Since both will work for you, you wanted to wear them at the same time, but that can't be possible as you only have a pair of feet to fit at a time!

You started hoping that whichever you had chosen is also what the shoe maker feels best fit you...or can you just suddenly woke up one day and see for yourself that what you've been wearing had been replaced by the shoe maker on his will so you are can be rest assured that you are wearing the right pair of shoe.

In real life...choices should be embraced with celebration rather than confusion, as not everyone got a choice and others are struggling to chase for options. Your free will shall dictate you which way to choose and which way to abandon. Be thankful when placed in a situation where you need to make a stand.

A dear friend of mine told me, when you make a decision, you have to be proud of it. And the most important thing is you realize that you do NOT owe anyone an explanation as to why you did it. As it is, it is your decision, it is your life...it is your journey and what do they have to do with it? : )

Have a great weekend everyone!

EQUALITY

Your message is LOUD and CLEAR...ALL are EQUAL. 

No one is below or above anyone. I guess this too applies to netizens.

Bashing anyone specially in social network does not give power over anyone nor does not make one more inteligent, smart, educated and all but otherwise. 

Arrogance does not equate to wisdom and a beautiful mind processes thoughts before it trancends into words and action.

Rest in peace Sir!

#no to cyberism (makaimbento lang ng term he he)

Singapore and I

This was my first photograph in Singapore, and since then I lost count of the pictures I had here. Time flies so fast and it has been two years! Can you imagine two great years? Singapore had changed me and my life in ways I could had never imagined. My journey here is a living testament that dreams do come true. They always do, specially when you always remind yourself that you have a personal obligation to fulfill items in your bucket list and thou shall never betray nor jeopardize their own dreams!

In less than a month from now, I shall bid goodbye to a country that served as my home for a couple of years. I remember, one of the local that I had a chit chat before told me that Singapore seems to be a paradise for Filipinos working here. Indeed it is, and I told him that yes, we are very grateful with what SG could offer us. I only have goods words to say about my stay here.

Those uncles and aunties downstairs that always greets me every morning, I will miss them as they brighten up my day. My random chats with some locals in a bus or train ride, those were awesome! I would always think about the chicken rice and my favorite noodles at the hawker center later on. When I am home I hope I would not mind the difference of public transport system from there and here. Although, there are many other nationalities as well living in Manila...how diverse the people here in SG is just magnificent, I will also miss the feeling of being in a middle of the crowd, walking with them or against their flow. Although each one seems to be going to a different direction...despite of the color of the skin, hair and eyes, I believed that in here...all are one and all are equal.

A lot of people told me I should or I could stay, two years may not be enough to end a journey that just started. When I come to think about it...well in comparison to some people staying here, mine is a bit cut short, but NO...I am just very thankful for every moment of my stay here. For some people, it is still just a dream for them to work and live here, but this had became a reality for me.

YES.

I could have fight for Singapore, and I believe Singapore could have fight back for me as well. I wish to stay and I would love to stay. But the idea as well of going back home is very enticing, I miss my country too! How many birthday parties I had missed? How many family gathering I wished I had witnessed? How many get together with friends had I skipped? Can you imagine how much laughter and fun I deprived myself with? Two (2) Christmas away from home is like a century if I may say. How many milestones of my daughter I had not seen before my very eyes? This things...money can't buy.

I realized there is always trade offs and it is just up to you to decide what matters the most...Home is not perfect but that is where ALL OFW's left their heart. I am deciding to pick up mine now.

As they say...You can only be at one place at a time. Maybe some day, I will walk again the aisle of MBS, ride SMRT, have a sumptuous dinner at Makansutra and have myself another picture with Merlion. Maybe, or maybe not as going back home might lead me a different direction in life. I don't know... I guess I just have to leave it up to our Lord, for He was the reason why I am here and He must know where am I leading.

One of the things I learned from a friend is to always have that "I COMPLETELY SURRENDER ATTITUDE" - Everything else will fall into its proper place.

Meantime in the coming days...Me and my wife will explore parts and attractions of Singapore we had not been to. It is sure to be fun : )

I  U SG!!!

Broken Pot

While browsing the net I saw this broken pot. This reminds me how obsessed are we with the idea of having a replica of something that was long gone.

They say that when something is broken, you'll kill yourself trying to fix it and end up realizing that no matter what you do..you'll never put it back the way it was.

Why do we exhaust all our efforts trying to fix something, when the best thing to do is to make the most out of the broken pieces and believe on the beauty it can deliver to our lives? - What was done with the pot was not to fixed it but rather, it was recreated with utmost respect to the fact that it was already broken. Then...it transcended beyond just being a pot, it is now a work of art.

Got any broken pot? Will you fix or recreate it? Happy weekends every one!!!

Grow Up

Seriously...please, grow up!!!

Life is more colorful and meaningful when we do not stress ourselves with our immaturity that just keeps us glued in a place where we keep a circular motion. Dear earth is indeed rounded but do not confuse it with your tiny comfort zone.

You will learn more, live a fuller life by just doing yourself a small favor.

JUST GROW UP...

Insensitivity

Just now....I saw a post in facebook where one of my friend has asked...

"Why do insensitive people exist?"

So I replied...

I should know...as I had crossed path with so many of them and sometimes I have to admit that I myself tend to be like this people. Actually all of us...as we are all same and capable of skipping someone's ground all because we are very much into our own affairs.

Plot

Time and time again, pag mabait ka inaabuso ka...pag sinalamin mo ung ugaling pinapakita sau may pakiramdam ka na parehas nio iniisip na masama ang ugali mo, kasi you don't get mad...you get EVEN.

Truth is...sa totoong buhay wala naman bida, wla rin kontrabida...at lalong walang biktima. Lahat ng nangyayari satin produkto ng kung ano ang pinahintulutan natin maging parte ng magiging end result ng desisyon natin. 

Sa huli kung bakit nasasaktan ang tao, wala dapat sisihin kasi sa mundong ito ang pag aari mo lang at kaya mo kontrolin ay ang sarili mong nararamdaman at hindi mo maaring i impose o idikit sa noo ng sinoman n parang post-it ang dapat ikilos ng ibang tao. 

Reality bites...sabi nga di lahat ng gusto mo makukuha mo at minsan kahit nakuha mo na mapapaisip ka kung tama ba o dapat nirespeto mo na lang sa baul ng nakaraan ang isang bagay na iningatan at pinaniwalaan mong sagrado.

Isang umaga nagising ka matapos ang isang napakahabang bangungot. Kung nagising ka ng mas maaga pwede mo isisi sa ibang tao o pangyayari kung bakit un ang napanaginipan mo. Pero dahil tinapos mo ang buong bangungot bago mo piniling magising, ang huli na lang na nasa isip mo ngaun...

"Sana bukas,pag pinikit ko uli ang mga mata ko, wala na yung takot. Kasi sa pagtulog hindi ung mismong bangungot ang nakakakaba kundi ung pakiramdam na maaari kang bangungutin."

P.S. April 20,2013. Patuloy ang pag ulan sa Pasir Ris kaya siguro inaanod ng mga patak ng ulan ang mga butil ng kaisipan na naglalaro sa aking balintataw

Pain at its Finest

I would say that pain is something that we all go through in our lifetime. Different intensities...different impact on our life. Some pain can be ignored in a blink of an eye as it can't even penetrate even the first layer of our sensitivity. Others are bound to be much more persistent. It reoccurs every so often that we realized that we are already living with it for as long as forever. It won't go away...maybe, just maybe we are not doing much to get rid of it. 

Yes, exactly...to get rid, not just to avoid it with pretty lies and pretensions that they don't even exist. As if we are fooling ourselves that we won't get wet when we expose ourselves in the rain. 

Today, just like coffee or any brand of tea that we are all wishes to drink...I am experiencing pain at its finest. I closed my eyes so it will not manifest into tears. But a heart that is wounded would not dare to look into an open or closed eyes. Tears are bound to fall just like rain when the clouds could not bear the pressure anymore. 

But what I am proud of myself is that out if this situation...I had evolved to be a better person. I had managed to twist my attitude in dealing with it. I am not anymore blaming anyone for what I am feeling...I realized that it is I, who must deal with this pain. As I rather caused this to myself rather than others had caused it to me. I realized in life...no one can ever hurt you unless you had allowed them to break you. And you shall never blame others for what you feel. Coz pain, specially those that hurts the most and strikes deeply into your core is something that started within you and should end with you.