Orgasm of Life

"Children are orgasm of life. Like you don't know what orgasm was before you had one. Nature does not let you know how great children are until you actually have them."

I love my tumbler, perhaps its the color that attracted me to bought it. But what is interesting about it is that there are numerous quotes printed therein. The one that caught my attention the most would be what is shown above.

The first time I read it, I thought it was funny but digging deeper into what the message is trying to convey I could say I can totally relate to what it is trying to imply.

My wife and I had Dennise Lourraine unexpectedly. We were not prepared for her. But God made it a lot easier for us as He guide us through, all the way. There were questions like "Am I ready?" How to be prepared?" But He showed us the way, He worked in a way I could never imagine possible. Things fall into its proper places, but God demanded that I do my part it making it happen. That was a journey so challenging and at the same time very rewarding.

When I look back, I can see that God instructed me to do many things I do not understand at all, but I just followed. Then He gave me a gift, a reward I had to work hard so I may prove my worth.

For the longest time, I knew there is a hole in my heart, there is a piece of me missing and there is a thing in me longing for something I really cannot explain the cause of which. I had tried to compensate and deal with it in a way I wasn't sure is suppose to work. I took chances. I search for it inside myself, and make the most out of me so I would have a sense of fulfillment and completeness, I search for it by connecting to people around me, associated myself with events and places that I had been but the hole just dig deeper and deeper.

When I heard the first cry of my baby, I finally get an answer to a life long journey of finding that missing article of myself. I told myself, now I am complete. Without saying a word, I realized that the journey has ended and just begun anew.

Suddenly, it is not just all about me, about how I will react towards the stimuli around me, with the advent of this chapter of my life, I now sense that I need to sort it out the best way to deal with it even if all along I have this conviction that I am doing things the right way and that I am perfectly fine. Yet, it has to be validated by now.

He has given me so many wonderful presents in different forms, mediums and presentations.

Undeniably, combined them all together does not equate to having Dennise Lourraine in my Life.

My precious little one.