I almost forgot that I do maintain a blog. I never got a single chance to revisit it for a year. I browse articles that I wrote and yesterday's fragrances all came back.
A taste of bitter, sweet memories encapsulated in those blog entries made me wanna smile. Just like painting, which I love to do during my younger years now... I unconsciously gave up writing which I used to do as my flush system for all that I felt before.
Perhaps, my world has taken a toll on my time. 2011 was such a blast! There were a lot of things that I kept on waiting and got tired of waiting because they never really happened and never really materialized... only to found out that it will strike my world like giant meteorites all at the same time.
Too hot to handle, but I carried on. Never was easy. Seems impossible and no way out but was possible. In fact, confidants who knew the tunnel of the stories were at some point speechless and couldn't find the right words to say when they felt they needed to say something. I never thought I would be enough to take care of all the trials, challenges and blessings. But with Divine grace, I was able to pull it off with angst and ironically with humility.
I again looked back on those previous blog entries, a saw a connection to the person that was and a person that I am today. The missing pieces, the intricate questions about life and the enormous emotional baggage that was once there is not totally gone but everything became clearer, lighter and more oriented.
I am now living a fuller life, living on my dreams...But my journey towards greater sense of awareness I believed did not started in 2011. Genesis goes back to a slam area where this young boy was wide awake and dreaming that life will soon began to have a fantastic face lift. Vivid memories of past made him observe that potent brain cells alone is not a guaranteed ticket to success but must be coupled with perseverance and trust in God. Pain is temporary and lessons learned from it is eternal. Life for him was not a bed of roses until at some point I saw the young man almost losing hope and get tired of it all. But he never gave up, for whatever it takes he just walk on. Until he met 2011. He was presented with answers to life's questions. He became a better person by putting down the biggest challenges he has been through.
This is the reason perhaps why I advocate positive attitude towards life. No matter what one is going through in his life, if that person will only realize the value and virtue of faith, trust and perseverance things will fall into its proper place... in God's time, not in ours.
I just now suddenly found myself again writing...and I am so exited to paint new chapters of my life with words that are moving around at the core of my heart and mind.
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