This past few weeks I had been randomly checking different aspects of my life and I just realized that there are areas in it that I chose to shelved for a while. Lenlen was even at one point telling me that I should start moving on, I expected to hear myself saying that I cannot do it as I am not over her...But I chose to kept my silence. I looked into her eyes and wanted to tell her that moving on is something that I had already achieved but moving forward is something else new to my language.
I know with all that had happen I was not a victim, never was a victim and if so... I must handcuffed myself for I had wounded some other people in my earlier days. In life, there is a cycle of taking and giving of energies, and in that process we all gamble so that no matter how confusing the laws are we could prove to ourselves that it is worth trying.
Lot of people had been wanting me to be singled out, and to some extent my single hood had bothered them more that I did. Funny. I never felt I wasted any of my time. I took the luxury of time to completely remodel myself to be the person I am today. I am now absolutely healed.
I can now seek for attention but I do not like the idea of marketing myself to be loved...
I know with all that had happen I was not a victim, never was a victim and if so... I must handcuffed myself for I had wounded some other people in my earlier days. In life, there is a cycle of taking and giving of energies, and in that process we all gamble so that no matter how confusing the laws are we could prove to ourselves that it is worth trying.
Lot of people had been wanting me to be singled out, and to some extent my single hood had bothered them more that I did. Funny. I never felt I wasted any of my time. I took the luxury of time to completely remodel myself to be the person I am today. I am now absolutely healed.
I can now seek for attention but I do not like the idea of marketing myself to be loved...
No comments:
Post a Comment