So Good

My soul is smiling today, my horizons are so clear that I see charms in the ugliness of an object and my eyes magnifies fairness of an outside beauty.

My heart is leaping.
My mind is full of positivity...
My heart is filled with joy.

I have no obvious reasons to be. Yet, I felt so blessed to feel this way. I don't even want to articulate why I am at the state of being almost totally free from anxiety, fear and hatred right now...at this very moment.

All I can say is wisdom is something we cannot fake, something we cannot claim we have but as we grow older we tend to peel its layers little by little and now that I get a glance of a pie of what's inside... I all the more want to dig in so I may continue to nourish my life with purpose and value.

Thanks God for making me feel worthy and blessed in simple and unique ways minus the drama and turmoil.

Moving Forward

This past few weeks I had been randomly checking different aspects of my life and I just realized that there are areas in it that I chose to shelved for a while. Lenlen was even at one point telling me that I should start moving on, I expected to hear myself saying that I cannot do it as I am not over her...But I chose to kept my silence. I looked into her eyes and wanted to tell her that moving on is something that I had already achieved but moving forward is something else new to my language.

I know with all that had happen I was not a victim, never was a victim and if so... I must handcuffed myself for I had wounded some other people in my earlier days. In life, there is a cycle of taking and giving of energies, and in that process we all gamble so that no matter how confusing the laws are we could prove to ourselves that it is worth trying.

Lot of people had been wanting me to be singled out, and to some extent my single hood had bothered them more that I did. Funny. I never felt I wasted any of my time. I took the luxury of time to completely remodel myself to be the person I am today. I am now absolutely healed.

I can now seek for attention but I do not like the idea of marketing myself to be loved...